August 05, 2005

What I did with myself last evening!

Does the title sound filmi? It was actually funny..
This week the workload has been swinging up and down unpredictably. So much so that I come in the morning thinking after I am done with this I will be free for the rest of the day and then it turns out that I spend all my evening slogging. Next day I come hoping to complete something no matter what. It will stretch all morning and suddenly its done by afternoon and I am suddenly free for tha day!

Now the former is easier to accept than the latter. Wonder why? If you dont expect to be free on a particular day you will not have planned for anything. And during these rare situations you dont know what to do with yourself. It happened last evening! Then I remembered I wanted to gift myself a black bag I had seen in Forum not long ago. (Gifting myself something rather than just buying it makes the whole thing all the more exciting!)

So I went there after office and straight to that store. Hey where had that bag gone? I searched for it but couldnt find it. Then I thought I will look for some other bag. I was not able to decide. So called my sis. My sis' phone was busy. Tried calling a friend. My friend was busy! Now dont ask me how could I get opinions about things over the phone. Okay fine, so I just walked out and went to clothes shop which had a nice discount. Inside I realised I dint want to buy anything there, that stupid bag was still bothering me.

You see, I am one of those weird people who beleive in love at first sight! Hey, I am still talking about things. When I like something at first sight, it really means I like it. If I start wishing the shade was a little darker/lighter or the design was a little different all it means is I may be buying it because someone is trying to sell it!So, I got out of there and went back to that bags store! Hey what are those people in the store for. They should be able to help me find it I thought. Went to one of them with those tags and described the bag I was looking for. She smiled blankly and tried looking for it. Why was I doing this to myself? Suddenly to my greatest relief my phone started ringing. It was sis. I blabbered to her and unburdened myself. She patiently heard me and suggested something that I so happily agreed to do. She asked me to forget about the bag and go to the nearest book shop, buy myself a nice book and spend the rest of the evening enjoying it.

Wow, why dint it occur to me before? This is precisely why one should have a sibling. Words from these kins who have that little extra or little less experience of life compared to yourself, can give so much more insight into simple things in life! You see parents can also tell you these things but it doesnt seem to have the same effect. The gradient is too large for the ego of a young adult and makes you feel many a time "hey you guys dont treat me like an adult sometimes!"

Okay, so I browsed through those books for a while, selected two of them and happily headed home. Then spent the rest of the evening reading,talking to a friend and unburdening my room-mate by listening to how hectic her day at work was. Finally what started out as a "what-do-I-do-with-all-this-time-alone" had turned out to be a nice little evening all by myself.

August 04, 2005

Hope

Its pouring in Mumbai. Everyday I get pictures and videos giving glimpses of whats happening there as shot by some of those unfortunate Mumbaikars. The rains have already claimed hundreds of lives. The Tsunami that happened months ago, now the heavy rains in Gujrat and Maharastra, London blasts, Blasts in Egypt...Its just not nature but people of the world are facing the fury of fellow beings also. Where is the world heading to?

Last week I was watching those ads of KBC-2 and fascinated by the theme- on how we all hope for a better tomorrow and struggle with our todays. But all these people who came face to face with the fears of never seeing that tomorrow they always dreamed of, or those who lost the very people they wanted to share it with..how would they feel..the wounds apparently heal..but leave the wounded ones scarred for life. How difficult could it be to cope with such sudden invasions into their lives, rendering one so very helpless, to cope with those feelings they never ever dreamt they would one day feel so intensely, all those felt so remote,so alien, things which they had seen happen to people in some far off worlds happening to them. Things certainly will never be the same for them.

All of us console ourselves with where we are, with whatever we have, though we not really happy with them, hoping someday things will be the way we want. Will they ever be? Can anybody guarantee it for you? Can anybody claim confidently to live the next day? But still what is it that keeps one going.

August 02, 2005

Slice of life!

She was sitting at her desk busy with something. She sneezed. He asked her to think of a number. Without turning back and ofcourse without thinking she replied "hmm..".
He: Whats the number?
She: 9
He: C'mon ya, think big..had it been me I would have said 5 zillion!
She: ok
He: Okay, now think of a number less than 10.
She: okHe: Whats the number?
She: 9
He: Again! You were not listening! I asked you to think big. Think 'out of the box' ya.You should have said 5 zillion.
There was no point arguing that 5 zillion is not a number less than 10. How can he be ever wrong? Moreover she wanted to be left alone for a while.

She: ok..,fine.

For the next question she knew the answer perfectly well. It had to be none other than 5 zillion!

He: Ok, now one last question
She: ya?
He: Whats 1+2?
She: 5 zillion?
He: Hey, did you ever go to school or not?

By now she had had enough. She furiously said "Get lost man!" He was laughing "hehehe!"
Next moment they were both laughing!

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